Weather, Work and What I’ve Become

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I lost my way. At the beginning of February, I spiraled into an emotional mess and my life started to grow darker and darker. It felt as though I was losing my grip on my reality and I found myself in an environment where my dwindling self-worth, self-esteem and confidence festered. I’m taking complete ownership and responsibility for this phase in my life. I made choices that I felt I deserved at that time and I cannot blame anyone apart from myself.

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Starting My Blog

Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better.

We are all born mad. Some remain so.

Dance first. Think later. It’s the natural order.

Where I am, I don’t know, I’ll never know, in the silence you don’t know, you must go on, I can’t go on, I’ll go on.

Nothing is funnier than unhappiness, I grant you that. Yes, yes, it’s the most comical thing in the world.

You’re on earth. There’s no cure for that.

Every word is like an unnecessary stain on silence and nothingness.

Nothing happens. Nobody comes, nobody goes. It’s awful.

The sun shone, having no alternative, on the nothing new.

They give birth astride of a grave, the light gleams an instant, then it’s night once more. 

Samuel Beckett

 

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My blog, my stage, my small part of this virtual world is the scariest leap I have ever taken. For the longest time I simply dreamed of who I wanted to be, could be, should be yet allowed the opinions of others to take first place. I’ve learned, and continue to learn that your passion is discovered. And I discovered my passion for writing a very long time ago. However, I dabbled in writing, I had periods where I plunged my very being into writing (even submitted manuscripts) and then recoiled like a wounded animal when rejected. I tried to suppress my passion. Continue reading “Starting My Blog”

Hoops for Me

 

My style has been something I have wanted to overhaul for such a long time. From changing my hairstyle and wearing clothes I love and feel good in as opposed to ones I can simply “just afford”, a “new me” has been at the top of my list for the last several years. I realise that finding my sense of style will be an ongoing process and that I will not have a specific or definitive look (although that might also change).

As I think back to my early twenties (10 years ago now!), I surprise myself at how daring and fashion-confident I was. I worked in an office where I wouldn’t think twice about mixing prints or fabrics or brightening up a complete black outfit with a colourful pair of shoes, blazer or even belt. I received compliments daily and was even told how a person couldn’t wait for me to walk through the door to see what I was wearing. Continue reading “Hoops for Me”

Contentment

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Contentment: noun; the state of being contented; satisfaction; ease of mind.  

This week I have sat and listened to numerous people complain about their job, life and overall being. However, these same said people were quick with their retorts when others expressed the same dissatisfaction by saying “well at least it’s a job”.

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